The after effect of stomach flu and diarrhea

How difficult a woman’s life can be? In this new era, we are multi tasking home maker, economy drivers, work force contributors, mankind duplicator, etc.

We are almost everything! We posses special emo swings, have a different anatomy structure from man which make us age and enter menopause faster than men… It seems like Women are born to enjoy suffering…

When I had my menses visiting me on Monday, it comes with added value services of stomach flu plus diarrhea…. Stomach cramps, Stomach flu, diarrhea and body ache all developed overnight… I felt like I am dying the next day…

Yes.. Although it did recover slowly… but still the side effect of diarrhea is making me crazy…

For the whole of yesterday and today, I am suffering from itchy asshole! The itch was caused by the abrasion from the aggressive stool outputting!

Damn… here it goes again… Itchy!!!!

Diary for this week..

All these months, I have been busying with helping in make up for Soka Youth Musical. The makeup group started the training in early January. Since then, we have been meeting up every week right from makeup lessons to trial make up for the cast, to rehearsals and eventually to the actual run when the show kick started on the 13th of March.

This weekend will be the end of 18 shows! I can't wait for it to finish so as ending the pain to travel so bloody far to the other end of Singapore and the misery to wake up at the crack of dawn during weekends in order to reach there at 7am! I missed having breakfast and spending time with my mum... I sometimes wonder how she spends her Sundays for the last couple of months. But I do have mixed feelings too. The rapport and friendships that I have developed with the makeup girls, the casts and other helpers in the show make me wana crave for more shows...

I cannot claim that I have grown a lot in the making of these shows, I mean in terms of spiritually. But I do see a significant change in my courage to face some of the challenges that I had feared in the past. With constant drilling of some religious encouragements and from readings, I think I have built up enough courage to face many things.

One interesting fact that I have noticed; many single ywds and ymds, at my age or older who are helping out, face relationship karma and some of them came to help in hope that the fortune received will benefit them in getting good wives or husbands. But...I did not come with this anticipation although I do have plans to settle down for a family one day.

This makes me wonder if I am abnormal or not? Or am I really becoming lesbian? hum... Need to do more self searching to find out more...

These few days or weeks!

These few weeks, especially these few days.... I have been waking up at 5plus or 6plus AM and going home only after 7 or most of the times reaching home only seconds before midnight...

My fortune tells that I will prosperous in this tiger year... don't tell me slogging to death is one of the way to prosperous?!

Last night, I forced myself to go for a run, thinking that maybe a run will energize my mind... But the minute my legs start to pace itself faster, I felt the ligaments and muscles were tearing apart... I know my body was tired... But I did expect that it is tired till this extend...

I am tired.. I feeeeeeeeel so bloody tired.... I can’t wait for this summit (event at work) to end.... I felt that I am all numb right now.... I want a break! I want to feel my nerves and muscles again!

恼人的过去，我讨厌你！

I thought I had loooooooooong forgotten my hurtful past, I thought I had just managed to overcome the fear of facing reality, I thought everything has been running smoothly for me....

I geared up all my energy to face this challenging year with all plans and activities lined up ahead...

Just as I thought it will run smoothly... The painful past started to hunt me back! Is this one of the effect that I have stirred up since I have been chatting hard core-ly to expiate my negative karma? I think sooo……

Last Friday, I felt that I have overcome the fear of travelling to the T place... (well, bcos the T place was somewhere I never want to step into since 3 years ago after that r/s.) During December last yr, I was approached to do make ups for some cast show running in March. I immediately accepted it but was told a bad news that the event place is at the T place.

I was mission-ed to travel to the T place every weekend to do make up for the shows. At the start of it, I travelled there fearing that I might bump into him, his friends or his families. I wore sunglasses and walked discreetly so as not to catch any attention! When days passed by with so many joyful chanting that I have put in, I feel that I have recovered, I have put down everything and I am ready to face the music, anytime and anywhere.

Moreover my prayers have been fulfilled... that is to overcome this fear and I did!

Therefore, I wrote blog dedicated to my ex to thank him for making me a better person and I mean it. I made it as the full stop for the memories I had with him. I felt that I am fully geared up to tackle whatever that comes to me....

Then, the very next day..... While doing the make up with the group I am in, I chit chatted with one of the ICs during breaks. We found out that we have got common friend... that common friend is no other than ex's sister! That IC is a very good friend of his sister too... Upon knowing that, it’s like a needle poking the tyre... haha.. pong chek half way!

Memories, memories, memories rushed into my brain vigorously that night... But I did recover my senses quite fast! I was okay, up and alive the next day!
But this did not last looooonnng till another hurting past came up again... when they don't come... they don't come at all.. When they come... damn! They came in BIG BULK!!

Just now as I was reciting my gongyo, my mum came into my room and was eager to speak to me. She told me that she met one of my colleagues back in the sales days. That colleague no longer work under that boss anymore, encountering the same treatment as I had 4 yrs ago where I broke ties with other colleagues at that time due to the backstabs I suffered from the boss. This colleague very much wanted to connect with me again and urged my mum to get me to call her for catch ups. (I am still deciding whether I should contact her or not.)

She also told my mum that another colleague also left because of a similar issue. The next thing that I am worried for are my long time friends who are also working there - LH & SK. I hoped they are spared from all these.

Again, I was left thinking about the painful past tonight....still stunned by the fact that the colleagues had also left the organisation.

I know that I can overcome this (thinking too much) for sure with such high life force that I possess now. I will chant more to quickly expiate away the negative karma and so they will not keep floating out and making me pounder thoughts over it.

I will also put in prayers for LH and SK to be spared from all these and that colleagues to have a healthy and happy life.

Although I can recover easily but I hoped that these encounters don’t happen again… I don’t like it… : |

I am the best that you ever owned

After so many years of struggling.. I dunno who I am... I dunno wat I want... I dunno how I feel... I dunno what I know...

I often looked back at the spot where I was being left behind by you, kept doubting myself for the mess that I had ended in...kept reflecting on what I can do better...

And later... kept laughing at myself for being such a fool...kept wondering what was on my mind back then...

Because of you, I have become a better person with higher qualification, more skills, bigger social networks, more positive attitude...

You gave me the motivation to achieve further in life, to strive higher in heights, to explore wider in the unreachable...

You made me realized that I am still loved by many people... that I am worth tons more love than what you can give me...

 ...that I am the best that you ever owned....

Thank you for giving me this loving experience....

Sasa (Jurong Point) Service Review - Bee Ee Shan

My buyings today at Sasa...

I spent a total of $91.15 in Sasa today with the Sales Associate - Bee Ee Shan. I shall go straight into reviewing her service.

Greetings:5/5

Generally, all staffs greet you when you enter the shops. Giving 5/5 is only because all of them did greet me on a promptness basis. But whether they take sincerity in greeting me is another thing. If you did notice, a lot of customer servicers in Singapore greeted the customers with their eyes looking at the clothes that they were folding, at the cashier while they were tendering the sales, at the food while they were fetching them, etc.

For Sasa, still ok. At least they did look at my direction when they chanted 'Gooooood.....' and back to the job they were doing while singing 'evening... welcome to Sasa...'

Her Courtesy : 5/5

Smiled while looking into my eyes!

Her Recommendation: 5/5

Overall very good. I was planning to buy 'The make up shop' brushes which cost about $24 for the biggest brushes, $22 or 02, about $20 for 03 and so on. Upon seeing my selection in the basket, she quickly presented me with 'Sasa' brushes which might not be pure goat fur but were a lot smoother and softer than my choice. Sasa brushes were at least half the price lower than 'The make up shop' bushes.

Her effort to understand my needs: 5/5

Very meticulous. She looked at the items I have selected and started a conversation to understand why I needed to buy them. Intermediately, asked if there was anything else I need.

Her Honesty: 2.5/5

When I asked if Sasa brushes are all made of genuine goat fur, she said yes. But I rebuked that the customer servicer in Sasa Raffles branch told me that they are made out of manmade and goat fur. She then diverted my attention to the fact that it is softer than goat fur, can be washed and it is cheaper. So, 'counted' as genuine goat fur.

Overall Service Quality: 4/5

Near to perfect aside from the honesty part. She gave me ample space to look around and kept a distance from me so that I do not feel pressurized and be made available immediately if I need any help.

Coco and Dave

Coco smsed me to book for a brazilian waxing appointment. She said she is coming with a friend and he may need to sit outside in the hall. That word 'friend' and 'he' caught my attention. Coco usually comes with her boyfriend - Dave and he will also get himself waxed too. So, this sms sparked off my curiosity.

I replied: "He? You mean you are not coming with Dave, both of you no more liao?”

And I received: "Yes, about one month plus liao..."

I have been waxing this couple for the past 6 months and get to learn about the love, the goals and future plans they had shared. This 3 year old couple shared so much in life which made me wonder what has weaken the bond between them and caused the break up. Of course I wanted to find out more and thought that it’s a good time if the new man was left sitting outside.

For those who have patronised BP will know that it’s a little inconvenient to bring your friend with you to my house. I only have my room that is cater for these services which do not have any sitting area dedicated to the client or their friends.

But when Coco and her friend arrived at my house, she decided that this man will sit in the service room. I respected that but in another way disappointed because this means that I could not find out more. After she left, I quickly sms that I am really concerned about what had happened and hoped that she is doing fine.

Apparently…..she is definitely doing ok! If not, that new man would not have come into her life. How lame I was…to be overly concerned.

I came across many waxing couples coming together for the waxing experiences. I learnt so much about their life, sweet encounters, future plans and many other things about them. We exchanged our thoughts, advices and experiences on BGR. And trust me that these conversations are one of the most valued lessons in my life.

I am not sure how many couples will end up like Coco and Dave who went on their separate ways or like another couple who got engaged on only 6 months of dating and looking forward to sweeter life together.

But I will pray hard that all couples who patronised BP will be blessed with the best loving experience in the world, be it regulars or non return clients.

Ewan Mc Gregor - Your Song.....