Just as I was talking to my friends about the saddest incident I went through yesterday... I realized my mum could have know that I was crying in the room all day...
Several times she try to talk to me...1st time, to put the folded panties on my bed. 2nd time to put the 2nd pile of panties on my bed, 3rd time where I already locked the door and she was knocking on the door while trying to open,she said she accidentally off the network. 4th time she knock on the door again and she wanted to speak to me...
everytime she comes, I show her my five fingers... looking at my phone, I said..I am busy in a cold tone (actually I am trying not to look at her directly so that she won't be able to see my watery face).
The last two time, she wanted to open the door and yet I refuse to open it. She said she wanted to talk to me and I said I wasnt free...Such a failure I am... damn myself...I am sure she is worried for me but I am too ashame to show my sobbing state... fearing that she will scold me crazy lah... siao lah.. blar blar...
haiz.. such a failure... when will I be able to be strong enough to face the way my mum show concern on me? just when?
Wednesday 13 July 2011
Tuesday 12 July 2011
Lesson learnt today..
1. When people ask you about how is the charactor of somebody, DONOT say the frank words. They merely will take in only the negetive comments.
2. People will only take you as badmouthing the person even when you told them that altot like this.. but overall she is a good person, friend or with some other better qualities.
3. Being KPO or FRANK only bring you troubles and nothing else...
4. When an overly express person met up with an overly analysed and an overly reacted person... the world turns upside down..
5. Jumping into conclusion is the first reaction for most people without doing deeper research...
6. Now I realised that a bestie is someone who wont doubt or misunderstand you in any circumstances. Even when someone tell her that u badmouth about her. She will ask and listen to your explaination before she jumps into conclusion. Thank you, Dolly for standing by me all these years.
2. People will only take you as badmouthing the person even when you told them that altot like this.. but overall she is a good person, friend or with some other better qualities.
3. Being KPO or FRANK only bring you troubles and nothing else...
4. When an overly express person met up with an overly analysed and an overly reacted person... the world turns upside down..
5. Jumping into conclusion is the first reaction for most people without doing deeper research...
6. Now I realised that a bestie is someone who wont doubt or misunderstand you in any circumstances. Even when someone tell her that u badmouth about her. She will ask and listen to your explaination before she jumps into conclusion. Thank you, Dolly for standing by me all these years.
Sunday 3 April 2011
今天心情 - 雨天
I came home, half sober, half drunken!
Many times, we always eXpressed ourselves out of pique! I did this exactly today! And only bcos I am this drunken,I Then can write this now!
Flipping up e food net, I saw a pizza my mum might have purposely left it for me!
Guilt start to fill me up to my brain from my feet! I started sobbing and wonder if I have been too harsh to her during dinner time js now.
Like a rebellious teenage, I get mad with my Sis sending me a SMS to ask if I wan to stay hm for my niece birthday cutting. Since my brother in law did not bring out the specially prepared princess cake when I m already halfway walking to e mrt,heading JP! My mum called to specially ask where I m. BUt all I cod think of is to brush
her off my Phone! Telling her that, if they wan to go hm, go hm, finished dinner already, go hm den go hm, no need to wait for me! I exclaimed!!!
Personally I was real mad with my sis's disorganised skill and e denial to accept suggest or anxiety to get things done..but I had it on my mum! Bloody karma I have formed! She kind of even called me during my dinner time to find an excuse to ask if pizza hut sells any 'fish' food which she wants to buy for my bro that I merely know its an excuse to check that I am alright! She actually feels bad! :(
I just can't help but felt awful that I have made my mum feel this way!I m sure she did feel bad to have make me feel mad during dinner! Even if its a few secondS that she feel that way, its already sinful enough for me liao!!!!
Many times, we always eXpressed ourselves out of pique! I did this exactly today! And only bcos I am this drunken,I Then can write this now!
Flipping up e food net, I saw a pizza my mum might have purposely left it for me!
Guilt start to fill me up to my brain from my feet! I started sobbing and wonder if I have been too harsh to her during dinner time js now.
Like a rebellious teenage, I get mad with my Sis sending me a SMS to ask if I wan to stay hm for my niece birthday cutting. Since my brother in law did not bring out the specially prepared princess cake when I m already halfway walking to e mrt,heading JP! My mum called to specially ask where I m. BUt all I cod think of is to brush
her off my Phone! Telling her that, if they wan to go hm, go hm, finished dinner already, go hm den go hm, no need to wait for me! I exclaimed!!!
Personally I was real mad with my sis's disorganised skill and e denial to accept suggest or anxiety to get things done..but I had it on my mum! Bloody karma I have formed! She kind of even called me during my dinner time to find an excuse to ask if pizza hut sells any 'fish' food which she wants to buy for my bro that I merely know its an excuse to check that I am alright! She actually feels bad! :(
I just can't help but felt awful that I have made my mum feel this way!I m sure she did feel bad to have make me feel mad during dinner! Even if its a few secondS that she feel that way, its already sinful enough for me liao!!!!
Tuesday 7 December 2010
Diary For This Week . .. 07.12.10
Coming to the end of 2010, what are you busy with?
Recently I have been busy with photoshoots workshop on ClubSnap! Eversince I started this.. I have been so obsess about it! Always check the veiwership everytime I log on the com without fail! How can I stop tis sia??? aiyooo... .
The saga that one of the baddies org on CS had created for me the week before(for drama queen shoot) makes me even more kiasu!! Not to mention, stress too!
Who will know what kind of effort I have been putting in? The norm thing is, org place adv then wait and see if enough shooters or not, enough then confirm shoot! Not enough then achieve....
For my kind, I prefer to do special themes, with the right makeups, hairdo and outfits.... after I decide on the theme and post the adv, I not only do plenty of researches on the styles but also kept worry and kept 'upping' my adv! In hope to get more shooters for my shoot! I really love and give pride in what I am doing here...
Its tough.. really tough.. I duno how long I can hang on....Hope for the best..
In the mist of approaching ZERO hope.. some lights did shade in for shoot last week-Sweety Santarina... its was 11/12!! Nearly full house!!!!
Overhere, I wana thank my best girly friends - Grace and Honey! Thanks so much for the on going encouragement and even offer to do this shoot free if I am not earning at all... I really appreciate your help! Thanks so much gals!
Thanks to Zahne & Photoart for the amazing help out at my shoot! Maybe I should really pick up photography.. if not, I kept choosing the wrong place, the wrong spot or so ever.. .Thanks so much Bro!! Also thanks those kind and forgiving pgs who attended it!!
This semi successful shoot did give me a big boost to carry on walking a few steps more.. I will of cos try to hang on and pray for the bestest to happen! :)
these are some pics the bros had took for me at the shoot!
Honey Grace Grace
The shooters at work!
Envy bah? See... I get to hug them at their waist! (oh... I am not a les, btw...I got boobs one you know?)
Recently I have been busy with photoshoots workshop on ClubSnap! Eversince I started this.. I have been so obsess about it! Always check the veiwership everytime I log on the com without fail! How can I stop tis sia??? aiyooo... .
The saga that one of the baddies org on CS had created for me the week before(for drama queen shoot) makes me even more kiasu!! Not to mention, stress too!
Who will know what kind of effort I have been putting in? The norm thing is, org place adv then wait and see if enough shooters or not, enough then confirm shoot! Not enough then achieve....
For my kind, I prefer to do special themes, with the right makeups, hairdo and outfits.... after I decide on the theme and post the adv, I not only do plenty of researches on the styles but also kept worry and kept 'upping' my adv! In hope to get more shooters for my shoot! I really love and give pride in what I am doing here...
Its tough.. really tough.. I duno how long I can hang on....Hope for the best..
In the mist of approaching ZERO hope.. some lights did shade in for shoot last week-Sweety Santarina... its was 11/12!! Nearly full house!!!!
Overhere, I wana thank my best girly friends - Grace and Honey! Thanks so much for the on going encouragement and even offer to do this shoot free if I am not earning at all... I really appreciate your help! Thanks so much gals!
Thanks to Zahne & Photoart for the amazing help out at my shoot! Maybe I should really pick up photography.. if not, I kept choosing the wrong place, the wrong spot or so ever.. .Thanks so much Bro!! Also thanks those kind and forgiving pgs who attended it!!
This semi successful shoot did give me a big boost to carry on walking a few steps more.. I will of cos try to hang on and pray for the bestest to happen! :)
these are some pics the bros had took for me at the shoot!
Honey Grace Grace
The shooters at work!
Envy bah? See... I get to hug them at their waist! (oh... I am not a les, btw...I got boobs one you know?)
Tuesday 23 November 2010
Diary For This Week . .. 23.11.10
What have I been busy with?
1. Finally launched my facial services.. But it wasn’t very popular among my clients… Haiz… like that how to open shop leh?? Nevermind, maybe it’s too early to judge!
2. Started to organised Club Snap shots for the photographers. Just want to use this chance to express my makeup skills to bring it to a higher level, meanwhile can benefit others by giving them a chance to practice their photographing skill!
It is quite a tedious organising procedure and not very profitable. But its ok..I will take it as a platform to serve my creativities!
Excitement of the week…..
I am so honoured! Yesterday, I served a client who is the national team for Queue Sport. Do I spell it this way? Billiard Queue! Never knew that a home service beautician can have the honour to serve such an important figure! :p
I wish her good luck for her future competitions!
1. Finally launched my facial services.. But it wasn’t very popular among my clients… Haiz… like that how to open shop leh?? Nevermind, maybe it’s too early to judge!
2. Started to organised Club Snap shots for the photographers. Just want to use this chance to express my makeup skills to bring it to a higher level, meanwhile can benefit others by giving them a chance to practice their photographing skill!
It is quite a tedious organising procedure and not very profitable. But its ok..I will take it as a platform to serve my creativities!
Excitement of the week…..
I am so honoured! Yesterday, I served a client who is the national team for Queue Sport. Do I spell it this way? Billiard Queue! Never knew that a home service beautician can have the honour to serve such an important figure! :p
I wish her good luck for her future competitions!
Sunday 10 October 2010
Diary For This Week . .. 10.10.10
After a couple of days part timing one night shift at one fullerton as merlion,I finally lost 1.1kg!!!! Well, just water lost.. it will be gained back after a while!
Been trying to recap how much medicine i have been popping. Let me see... I popped at least 6 annerex, 5 dimenhydriate, 5 chlordiazepoxide, 6 panadol for muscle n joint (this works really well for both my tummy n body. Even better than annerex!). Oh oh.. not forgetting 4 tiny bottles of bo zai yi. All of these in 48 hrs!
Ate only one slice of white bread with nutella spreading for lunch, soya bead curd for dinner. Today, very greedy, 1 banana for breakfast, off to my bridal makeup then nothing until 7pm, a choco pancake, a pcs of kfc crispy chicken, some cheese fries and I can feel the food is dancing waltz in my tummy now... Oh oh..off topic... you know what? I hear from the bridegroom, that today there is about 700plus couples getting married. 101010... humm... matrix day!
Bcos of this stomach flu, I cancelled 4 appt for waxing. Estimated a lost of near 200 bucks. Duhz... painful sia... but what to do? I was so tired after the part timing. The force of vomiting is like flushing a toilet, FULL TANK! TORTURING!
Next week seems to be a week without resting day... weird.. one week lobo, one week busy.... haiz.. okie.. I have to stop thinking negative... I must remain positive... Need to recover back my facial product cost!!! arggghhhhhhhh!!! KAN BA TE!
Been trying to recap how much medicine i have been popping. Let me see... I popped at least 6 annerex, 5 dimenhydriate, 5 chlordiazepoxide, 6 panadol for muscle n joint (this works really well for both my tummy n body. Even better than annerex!). Oh oh.. not forgetting 4 tiny bottles of bo zai yi. All of these in 48 hrs!
Ate only one slice of white bread with nutella spreading for lunch, soya bead curd for dinner. Today, very greedy, 1 banana for breakfast, off to my bridal makeup then nothing until 7pm, a choco pancake, a pcs of kfc crispy chicken, some cheese fries and I can feel the food is dancing waltz in my tummy now... Oh oh..off topic... you know what? I hear from the bridegroom, that today there is about 700plus couples getting married. 101010... humm... matrix day!
Bcos of this stomach flu, I cancelled 4 appt for waxing. Estimated a lost of near 200 bucks. Duhz... painful sia... but what to do? I was so tired after the part timing. The force of vomiting is like flushing a toilet, FULL TANK! TORTURING!
Next week seems to be a week without resting day... weird.. one week lobo, one week busy.... haiz.. okie.. I have to stop thinking negative... I must remain positive... Need to recover back my facial product cost!!! arggghhhhhhhh!!! KAN BA TE!
Tuesday 31 August 2010
My Childhood picture, Cute?
After a waxing session, my client - Jayelle commented that my niece looked like me.... Of course I denied! haha..
Then my act smart mother quickly say to my client; " I show you her childhood picture! Looked like her niece!".
And there my act smart mother showed us this picture.
This is me when I am like, 6 year old. CUTE? This is the period where many of my parents' customers commented that I looked like yang li bing.
Li Bing was very popular when I was young. Been searching for th picture to show incase you don't know who she is... High and low, left and right..
Finally found her picture.
In this picture, its Li Na (left) and Li Bing (right)
Do you know where I find her picture? I found it in the news of Li Na's death. Getting popular for the wrong reason? Maybe...
If 20 yrs ago, internet was very common. I am sure we can find more of her picture right now. What a pity... I kind of like her acting though (not because I looked like her when I was young >.<).
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